Anybody got some chocolate?

It's been a while since I blogged, partially due to laziness and partly due to being busy with other things. I'm still diligently working my A** off at the gym, slowly losing the weight and building up the muscles. Pretty soon, I will have to give up all my comfy saggy fat pants in favour of something form fitting. I'm about to leave the safety of the plus size section of the ladies department for the much bigger and scarier "regular sized section". Sizes such as 1X, 2X make total sense to me. Small, Medium and large not so much. I step with great trepidation among the racks of stylish clothing without elastic waistbands and built in tummy control. It's confusing!

I'm also at a bit of an impasse with Bicki. Don't get me wrong,he's been a great trainer. We have made huge amounts of progress, he and I, but recently his mind seems to be on something (or someone) else. It first started with a change in our regular schedule. Suddenly, he was not "available" on Thursdays. Then a series of late's, rescheduled appointments and then today, a flat out no-show. I'm no fool... I know what's going on... Bicki has another...CUSTOMER!!!!!!

Sure, we can go on pretending like there's nothing going on, that everything is just as it was when we first met. Me in my tight gym pants and he with his rippling muscles and shaved head. I should have known that it couldn't last.

So fine! let him have his other customer, I hope she's a 20 something flake who dumps him after she loses 20 pounds. She'll never be interested in listening to all his griping and complaining about how crappy his job is or how stupid his ex girlfriends are, or how little all the other trainers at the gym know.

She won't be able to give him advice on how to approach that pretty girl across the gym, cause she'll think she's the ONLY girl worth looking at. And forget getting her to squat and lunge her way through a work out. God forbid that she might actually sweat! Whatever. We are SO DONE!!!!!!